Funny how it feels like

The change happened so fast

Almost like closing one door and

Opening another

But I know it’s taken years

To be able to feel

This way

So peaceful

So whole

So new

What a strange and

Wonderful feeling

You’re in my heart now

In that space that had been

So empty after you’d gone

I think I was trying to hold

Onto you so tight

That I couldn’t really feel

You there before

But now I’ve let you go

And I can feel you close to me

Closer than ever

I’ve found you again

And I’ve found something I thought had died

When you did –

Myself, I found myself

But not the me I was before you

Or even with you

No, I’ve found someone

Not afraid to feel anymore

Not afraid to cry anymore

Born again it seems –

From tears and pain

Nightmares and death –

Born again

To embrace


And everything

In it

* in loving memory of Jimi B.





2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. mishunderstood
    Apr 12, 2013 @ 05:03:05

    That is beautiful.


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